The power of positive thinking

I'm nervous.  I'm not quite scared.  Just nervous, really.  Why?  Because of a doctor's appointment that I have to go to this Friday.  It's for an ultrasound.  It would have been exciting if it was because I was pregnant.  I'm not pregnant though.  This ultrasound was scheduled because my doctor found a lump in my left breast 2 weeks ago.  So, instead of having a pregnancy scare, I am having a breast cancer scare.  Doesn't seem all that fair really.


I'm nervous but I'm worried.  At least, I'm trying not to be worried but that is rather difficult.  Everyone keeps telling me that it is probably nothing.  That it IS nothing.  I keep telling myself that too and I'm trying to believe it.  I'm trying out positive thinking:  ~~They will tell me that it's nothing.  That I'm fine.  That I have nothing to worry about...for now.~~  It runs in my family.  My grandmother had breast cancer and had her right breast removed.  My mother just had a breast cancer scare but the lump that they found was determined non-cancerous.  This will probably not be my last visit to the hospital because of this.  I hope it is though.


When I get the results, which I think will be on the 12th of April, I will let everyone know.  Until then, just think positive thoughts. =)


In other news, my Gaara bag [the messenger bag I've been talking about] arrived today.  I grabbed it from the post office today during my lunch break.  I left it at home but I'm excited about it.  I'm looking forward to seeing if and how everything will fit inside of it.  I thought it was silly, at first, that this one bag came in such a large box but now I see why.  Obviously the people working at Amazon knew that I had a big fat cat named Malik who likes to sleep inside of boxes.  This box is the perfect size for Malik.  It took him less than 2 minutes to claim it as his own.  That was, of course, until my 7 pound cat, Mimzy, kicked Malik (who has to be close to 13 pounds) right out of the box.  It made for a funny lunch break. 


Now that I'm being made full time at work I have the option of getting insurance through the company I work for.  Of course I am going to.  Too bad I don't actually understand any of this paperwork that they've given me to read about the different insurance choices and everything.  I have a few days to a week to understand it and fill out the paperwork so it can be sent in.  Wish me luck with that.  It's very confusing.


Speaking of confusing.  I'm in the process of learning another test at work.  Days like this make me wish I had stuck with my original plan of going to college to major in Chemistry.  It would come in really handy these days.  Or at least help me fully understand what the test is for and everything it involves.  Compared to some of the tests I've learned to do so far, this new one seems fairly easy.  It's in no way simple, though.  I guess it'll seem simple once I get the hang of it though.


One more thing before I say farewell: My dentist appointment is fast approaching [April 2nd].  For those who don't know, my teeth suck.  I'm in the process of having them all yanked and then getting dentures.  I'm very much looking forward to the days when I won't have any pain coming from my mouth.  The first group of teeth to be pulled will be 3 front teeth on the top.  These are going first because they hurt the most.  Plus, if I'm missing my front teeth I know I won't put off having the rest of them done and getting to the end result faster.  


That's all for today.  Thanks for joining me here. Toodles! =)